Day 29 - The Person That You Want To Tell Everything To, But You're Too Afraid To

This letter is not to be found, considering that I only have a few people in my life that I tell everything to, and that's because they have gained my trust. I don't want to tell everything to other people, because I don't fully trust them yet, not because I'm afraid. Yeah, mine was very much like Amanda's, because we're best friends, and we think alike. :D

Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 28 - Someone That Changed Your Life

Dear Jesus,

YOU are the one who totally changed my life for the better! For real, you're the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I wouldn't do anything to change that. You constantly amaze me in the things that you are doing in people's lives, and I know for certain that you are not finished with me yet. I love you!

Your Daughter,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 27 - The Friendliest Person You Knew For Only One Day

Dear Person-who's-name-I-think-starts-with-an-H,

Yeah, so we met at a camp a couple of years back, I can never remember your name, just that it starts with an H! You were such a sweet guy, a beast at all things sports, you talked to me all the time because we were on the same team for a day, AND to top it all off, you were really cute. Mhmm! You were! If we ever have the chance to see eachother again some day, it would be epic if you remembered me! Just sayin! :D

Your For-one-day Friend,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 26 - The Last Person You Made A Pinky Promise To

Dear Ashley J.,

Just a week ago, you made a pinky promise to me that you would stop torturing me in the corner of Becca's room. I think pinky promises are a lost art form. Pinky promises are so much more legit than swearing on stuff. "Pinky promise?" means WAY more than "I swear on my big toe!". Yeah, I don't know why I chose big toe. I don't like toes. Well, I mean, I like that they help me stand up and keep my balance, but I don't like looking at them. Yes, I just stuck my foot up in the air to examine my toes. >.> Ashley, do you like feet? If you do........then you should get a CAT scan. Hey, I like cats, just in case you didn't know. They're so adorable and cute and cuddly.
Okay, so I kind of strayed away from the real meaning of this letter. What IS the real meaning of this letter again? Oh yeah, IGUANAS!

Loooove,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 25 - The Person You Know That Is Going Through The Worst Of Times

Okay, so I got a few days behind due to sickness. I'm still a tad under the weather, but now I have the grueling task of writing 5 letters. I can't guarantee anything interesting, so bear with me.

Dear Mr. and Mrs. Hord,

So just this morning I received an email that Mr. Hord had a heart attack and is now at the hospital in critical condition. I just wanted to let you both know that a bunch of us kids in the youth group are praying for you, Mr. Hord. I'm also praying for Mrs. Hord because I know it must be hard having to sit there with him, knowing that you can do nothing for him but pray. Prayer is a strong enough thing to make him get better, though. I really hope that he gets better soon so you both can come back to church. I love you both! :D

Love,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 24 - The Person That Gave You Your Favorite Memory

I have so many amazing memories with almost all of my friends, but I'm gonna write to my two best friends, since we have the most funny/embarrassing memories!

Dear Tonya,

Hey, my dear friend! :D There are so many stinkin' memories that we have together that it's hard to name just one! I'll name a few though! Remember that time you bumped your head into the window in front of "cough* that person and were really embarrassed? That was funny. Remember when I got sooooo mad at you on vacation and then it was automatically resolved when the bathroom toilet overflowed? That was funny. Remember that time we both did a bunch of cartwheels in your living room and danced to the ending song on "Another Cinderella Story" and TAPED it? Remember that time we drew a face on your stomach and you pretended to be Ozzy Osbourne? Oh...the times we've had. I love when we're together! :D

Dear Kamanda,

Wazzuuuup? :D You know what? It's funny that any time we're together, we always have an ugly face contest. Of course, I always win, but that's because I have what you call a "rubber face." But that's okay, MY rubber face makes people laugh, if not make me feel totally stupid. You're the one who saw me in my MOST embarrassing moment *cough* ice *cough*, and even though I was TOTALLY embarrassed then, it's something to laugh about now! I love how you always try your hardest to stay out of drama and stuff, and how when you and somebody are fighting, that you always come to me to try to stop it. That kind of makes me feel important and needed. :D I love you sooo stinkin much! :D

LOTS OF MUSHY GUSHY LOVE,
Kirstin/Jo/Madeline/Skittles/Koiston

People

I have great friends and family. For real, I love all of my friends infinity times over! I don't think I would be able to go on if I didn't have all of my great friends that I have now. I love people so much, in general! I don't think I'd ever be able to live by myself without feeling lonely. Being around people just makes me happy, especially being around people who are super super nice and awesome, like 99.9% of the people I hang out with now.

I really don't realize how much of a blessing that friends can be. Sometimes, after reading something or seeing something, it just hits me how blessed I am to have these amazing friends and family, how blessed I am to be going to a school where there are Christians left and right, and how blessed I am to just have things that other people go without. For real, I'm just in shock of how many things I take for granted.

Is it weird to miss someone a minute after just seeing them? If I'm in the house for a minimum of 3 days, I'm itching to get out of the house and see people. What can I say, though? I love people! :D

Sincerely,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 23 - The Person You Last Kissed

Dear Nobody,

Hi nobody! How are you? So...we've never kissed. Which is cool, if you look at it from my perspective! I mean, I don't wanna go around kissing boys who I most likely will NOT spend the rest of my life with. For example, when I get my first boyfriend, I'm not gonna be all like "Oh my gosh, I love you sooo much and I know that we are NEVER going to leave each other and we're gonna get married and never ever ever EVER break up because I love you so much" and be all kissy kissy all the time. I'm a little more old-fashioned than that when it comes to these things. Laugh at me if you will, but that's what I believe. Yeah...I feel awkward writing this......Bye.

Love,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 22 - Someone You Would Give A Second Chance To

Dear Everyone,

I give second chances all the time, and that's because anyone can change. Sometimes people don't change, but I mean, that's their choice. It's amazing when people DO change, though! It's like meeting a whole different person sometimes. I'm all for giving second chances, third chances, etc. Just don't take advantage of that, now that you know. Kay? :D

Looove,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 21 - Someone You Judged By Their First Impression

Dear Ellen Dooley,

Hiya girrrl! :D So first off I'd like to say that I am SO happy that you and I have become friends and that I've gotten to know you! Even though you are younger than me, I find myself looking up to you because you have such a heart for God.

Anyways, so I have to admit...when I first saw you, I could have sworn you were THE preppiest girl in the universe. Just the way you carried yourself, what clothes you always wore, and how you acted around other people made me think that. Boy, oh boy was I WRONG! You turned out to be THE sweetest girl on the planet, and that's a little unusual considering that most gorgeous girls are snobs. Not you, you're sweet AND gorgeous! Yeah, I'm really really REALLY happy that you're my friend. :D I LOVE YOUUUU! And miss you...even though we just saw each other a few hours ago! :D

Your Friend,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Boy, Oh Boy.

So many times, in today's society, you hear countless teenage girls saying they've "fallen in love" with some guy...when a couple weeks later, they're on to "loving" another guy. I really don't think it's "falling in love" when you're falling OUT of love so quickly. If it's real love, it shouldn't be so easy to fall out of it. I can honestly say that I have never "fallen in love" with a boy. I've fallen in LIKE with countless boys, but I've never really loved them.

My definition of love: "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." (1 Corinthians 13:4-7)

According to that scripture, I KNOW I've never loved a guy. I've just been infatuated.

So here lately, I've really been trying to not like anybody. I've been trying to just focus on God, not on boys. When I like somebody, they are the one who consume most of my thoughts throughout the day, and all that thought time should really belong to God. He's the one who deserves it, not some boy who will never like me. Pshhh, BOYS!

Sincerely,
Kirstin

Day 20 - The One That Broke Your Heart Hardest

Dear ______,

Okay Mister, I don't hate you, but I definitely do not like you. You made me think that you legitimately cared about me, and then you just stopped talking to me. I don't know if I did anything, or if you just lost interest, but now I don't even have the slightest urge to say anything to you...ever. I don't even see why I cried over you, because I sure know you didn't even think twice of me. The only thing left I have to say to you is...have a nice life.

Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 19 - Someone That Pesters Your Mind, Good or Bad.

Dear Person-Whos-Name-I-Shall-Not-Mention,

Yeah, I need to stop being so irritated at lame things. I love you a lot, but sometimes I just get irritated and annoyed way too easily! I can only hope that one of these days, you will get irritated at ME, because I deserve it! But no, you're way too sweet for that. :D

Love,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 18 - Someone You Wish You Could Be

Dear Myself,

So I can honestly say that I wouldn't wish to be somebody else. Nobody else in the world. I can only wish for a better version of myself. Not in looks, but in personality. I want to be a nicer person, someone who is a great listener and gives the BEST advice. Someone who is the type of person that friends will immediately go to with their problems, trusting me to not tell anybody. I want to be the type of person where people will look at me and see God through me. Right now to me, It doesn't matter who lives in a huge, beautiful house, with the best looks in the world, because I would rather have the above personality than great looks and a bunch of money.

Love,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 17 - Someone From Your Childhood

Dear Kari Manning,

Yeah, remember when we were friends? Well I do, and you were so super nice and funny and I wanted to be like you.......Well not anymore, now that I've seen you again and know how you are after several years. I remember you used to call me your BFF and you came to my 9th birthday party. It's a weird thought now to think that you and I were friends....Yeah. Bye.

Your Used-To-Be Friend,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 16 - Someone Not In Your State/Country

Dear Adam Young,

So I know I'm copying Ryan by writing to you, but really....we should get married. Even my Mom said so...thinking about proposing to me soon? I mean, I know we've never met and you basically don't know that I exist...but I know YOU exist and you're AMAZINGGG!!! :D So we should meet so you can propose. ^_^ I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUU!

Your Wannabe Wife,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 15 - The Person You Miss Most

Dear friends,

So I know I saw a lot of you today, but I'm the type of person that misses people the moment I'm away from them. So yeah, I miss every single one of you A LOT! If you're reading this and we've met, then I MISS YOU! For real, I do. I'm always counting down until I see my friends next, because I love all of you so much! :D Friends are the greatest things to have in the whole wide world...well, next to cats. But whatever...Haha! ^_^

Your (hopefully equally loved) friend,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 14 - Someone You've Drifted Away From

Dear Alex and Morgan,

Hey guys! Remember when we were little and we always used to say how we'd always be best friends and nothing would ever change that? Well...I moved. Every vacation back there I'd always visit for a couple of days and stuff, but a few years back, we just stopped doing it. You both have changed, and I've changed. Sure, we still talk some on facebook and stuff, but that friendship has deteriorated. I still miss you guys and want to see you when I go back to visit, but you're both always busy and I think after these few years, it would just be really awkward. I miss you both and love you.

Love,
Sissy

Day 13 - Someone You Wish Could Forgive You

Well I'm not aware of anybody holding a grudge against me, but here I go!

Dear Person-I'm-Not-Aware-Of,

You should forgive me. Forgiveness is a big thing that takes a lot of weight off of your shoulders. I'm not sure of what I've done to whoever you are, but I can only pray that you'll forgive me. I'm sorry for whatever I did to offend you or just make you not like me. FORGIVE MEEE! =(

Love,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 12 - The Person You Hate Most/Caused You A Lot of Pain

Dear Non-Existent Person,

I love you.

Love,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 11 - A Deceased Person You Wish You Could Talk To

Hey guys! Sorry I got a little behind! Busy weekend!

Dear Jane Austen,

Wow. You were an amazing writer! I wish I could have met you while you were still alive! I adore your books! I bet when you were still alive that you couldn't even imagine that in the year 2010 your books (and now movies) would be popular! It's sad that you died when you were only 42, because I can't even imagine how many more books you would have written had you lived longer! I can only hope that you were a Christian so that I can see you one day in heaven! :D

Your major fan,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

(By the way, it's weird that Ryan has the same birthday she did. December 16th)

Day 10 - Someone You Don't Talk To As Much As You'd Like To

Dear Chelsea,

Hey Girrrrl! :D So yeah, even though we go to the same church and see eachother like once a week, that's SO not enough! I mean, we can't really spend a lot of time together at church talking about stuff. You're really fun to be around and I wish that we could see eachother more often, or even just talk more often. Since you've gone to public school, we've seen eachother less and less. It really sucks. But yeah, I love youuu and hope I'll see you very soon! :D

Love,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 9 - Someone You Wish You Could Meet

Dear Zachary Levi,

I wish we could meet one day. I'm sure you're just as funny, cute, and amazing as you are in your movies, YouTube videos, etc! :D If we did meet, or even in I was 5 feet away from you, I think I'd pass out, no lie. You have an amazing singing voice, by the way! ^.^

Your Creepy, Stalkerish, Fan girl,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 8 - Your Favorite Internet Friend

Well I don't really have any internet friends that I've never met before, except for eb_fourside, but we've never really talked. But I shall write a letter to her anyways! :D

Dear eb,

Hey! So I've heard a lot about you and you seem extremely nice and sweet, but I've never talked to you I don't think! I just don't know what I'd say, and I hate being all awkward lol! So here's something to start off a conversation, and I will face the awkwardness if it comes......hi! :D Haha!

Your Acquaintance-That-You've-Never-Met,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 7 -Your Dreams

Dear Dreams,

I love you. Seriously, you are always so crazy and random, I LOVE it! Except for those two times you gave me the same dream about being chased down in slow motion and nobody could hear my screaming. That was a little creepy, not gonna lie. I love how you sometimes make me fly. Flying is completely epic! There's no feeling like it in the world! Anyways, keep giving me all these random dreams, because they give me something funny to look back on as the day progresses.

Oh, and by the way, could you perhaps lessen a little on the dreams about being eaten by alligators and sharks and things like that? I'd appreciate it a lot. :D See ya tonight!

Love,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 6 - A Stranger

Dear Stranger,

Do you have kids? I don't...I mean, I'm only 16. But you didn't know that about me because we've never met. Once we DO meet, I'll have a new friend, and that will be epic! I love new friends...even though it's kind of awkward because I don't know what to say to people I've never met. I'm rambling, because I'm a rambler to people I've never met before. "Rambler" sounds kind of like "Rambo"...but I'm NOT Rambo, 'kay? I'm just a teenage girl, who is writing a letter to a person I've never met, never heard of, and never seen. But when I DO meet you, it shall be memorable...to me. But it might not be memorable to you, because I COULD be the most boring person everrr. Ya never know, though, I could be pretty amazing! I can't wait to meet yoooou and be your frieeend! :D

Your Non-Friend-At-The-Moment,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 5 - Your Future Spouse

Okay, so being only 16 and barely having one boyfriend in my lifetime, this will be kind of weird considering I don't have even the slightest inkling of who my future spouse may be. At the rate things are going right now, I'll be lucky to even get married! But, nonetheless, here I go!

Dear Future Spouse,

I can only hope that if and when I get married, then we will truly love each other. I hope that I can be the best person to make you feel better after a bad day, and that I will be your best friend and you can be mine. That we will be able to go to each other with anything, and not be afraid to share how we feel about stuff. That we will be one with each other and with God, and that most importantly, we will put God above each other! I hope that you will be the man that I will grow old with. I hope that we can pray together, laugh together, and cry together (crying is NOT a bad thing for a guy to do, by the way.) Whoever you are, I love you.

Yours,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 4 - Your Sibling (Or Closest Relative)

Dear Ryan and Jake,

I'm super glad that I got you both as brothers.

Ryan, I'm so happy that as we've gotten older, that we've become better friends. I'm glad that we very rarely fight anymore, and that I usually don't feel weird talking to you about stuff (other guys). I'm happy to be able to call you one of my best friends, even though you probably think that I'm lying. lol I love you, Tootie! :D

Jake, even though I know you probably won't read this, I'm sorry for always being a little brat towards you when I was little. I miss you now that you're in NC, and I can not WAIT until you move back here with Leann. I'm happy to call you my brother, and I hope that when you move back here then we can be closer as a family! I love you! :D

Your Sister,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 3 - Your Parents

Dear Mom and Dad,

No offense to all those other parents out there, but you two are the best!

Mom, thanks for being such a great Mom all these years, for teaching me through your actions what it means to be a real Godly woman, and for just overall being a great Mom! I know you've been through a lot in your life and it's great to see what a great Mom you've become over the years. You're the best Mommy everrr and I love you sooo much! I don't know what I'd do without you!

Daddy, thanks for being my Daddy. Thanks for being your goofy self and for disciplining us when we need it. Even though I know you sometimes think that you don't do enough for our family, you do way more than you even know! I don't think you and Mom are fruit loops, by the way! I'll love you forever, no matter what. :D

Your Daughter,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

Day 1 - Your Best Friend

These two people I'm writing to are my best friends in the world. They are the funnest people to hang out with, and I love them to death! :D


Dear Tonya,
I’m so happy to be able to call you my best friend. I love that we always love spending time together, doing ridiculous things, and just talking. I love that I can come to you with anything and feel comfortable talking about it. Even though we sometimes have our arguments and crap like that, I’m happy that we have always gotten over them, because it’s made us better friends. I don’t know what I would do without you sometimes, and I can only hope that we stay friends forever. You know how most adults say “I don’t even talk to the people I used to be best friends with as kids”? Well, I hope when I’m an adult with a family that I can still call you my best friend. I hope we never move away from each other (even though it’s likely to happen), but even if we do, I hope our friendship is strong enough to withstand it. I love you so much. I don’t think I could love you any more, even if you were my actual sister.

Dear Amanda,
Wow. You’re awesome. I’m so super happy that you’re one of my best friends! Even though we sometimes get aggravated at each other, we always seem to get over it quick with our apologies! I’m lucky to have such a good friend like you. You are a great listener when I need to talk or vent about something, and I can only hope that I’m as good of a friend as you. I love how we had such a weird beginning, because it gives us something to laugh about now! Haha! We ALWAYS have a fun-filled time together! I love/hate being your model when you want to take pictures of/with me! You’re a kick-butt photographer and your creativity is endless! :D I LOVE YOU SO FREAKIN’ MUCH! :D *Laughs in whichever of my endless laughs you prefer* teehee!

Love,
Kirstin Joelle Tucker

So I'm Totally Doing This!

Day 1- Your best friend

Day 2- Your crush

Day 3- Your parents

Day 4- Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5- Your Future Spouse

Day 6- A stranger

Day 7- Your dreams

Day 8- Your favorite internet friend

Day 9- Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10- Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to

Day 11- A deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12- The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13- Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14- Someone you've drifted away from

Day 15- The person you miss most

Day 16- Someone that's not in your state/country

Day 17- Someone from your childhood

Day 18- The person that you wish you could be

Day 19- Someone that pesters your mind-good or bad

Day 20- The one that broke your heart hardest

Day 21- Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22- Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23- The person you last kissed

Day 24- The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25- The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26- The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27- The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28- Someone that changed your life

Day 29- The person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30- Your reflection in the mirror

My Favorite Person

My favorite person ever is amazingly strong, He’s indescribably beautiful, He has unending love for me, He’s the best friend any person could have. He made the world around you, He made you and I. My favorite person’s name is God.

I can’t wait to get to heaven and get a hug from God. I mean, He’s God, so He has to be the best hugger ever. Think about the person here on earth that gives the biggest, sweetest bear hugs ever…then times that by about a gazillion. That’s probably a little bit of the equivalent to God’s hugs.

There are so many people on this earth who want just one good friend. They want someone who will never stop loving them and won’t ever leave them. People yearn for companionship. Don’t they realize that the one person who could provide the best companionship is God? He said "I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. (Hebrews 13:5)” He will NEVER leave! Yet people walk away from Him all the time. I’ve done it before, I’m not proud to say.

Think about this. The biggest, most powerful being in existence, the one who made everything, including you and me, would send His Son to die on the cross even if nobody but you were the only one who accepted Him. He would sacrifice His Son’s life, just for you. I can’t even seem to wrap my mind around that. Me, the person who sins every day, who has walked away from God, who has done so many things she’s not proud of, is worth everything to God. To Him I’m everything. To Him YOU are everything. Just that thought is enough to bring tears to my eyes and make me want to see Him even more.

Thank you, God…for everything.

Sincerely,

Kirstin Tucker

Please Read

So here lately, God has been getting on me for making fun of people. I mean, I haven’t made fun of people in a mean way, just jokingly. Even just making a snarky comment towards one of my friends has convicted me. God’s been really showing me things that I say and do, without even thinking twice about it. He’s been putting certain people on my heart, and hearing some of the things my friends say about these people really upsets me.

If the subject of peer pressure ever came up in the past, I’d immediately think, “I won’t fall into peer pressure, I’m just not that type of girl.” Boy, oh boy, was I ever wrong. It wasn’t anything major that I fell into, it was going along with making fun of someone. I’ve told her I am sorry for doing it, but it still makes me upset that I’ve done that. This one boy I know repeatedly calls me mean, for reasons I don’t know, because I’ve never been mean to him, but it got me thinking. Am I really mean? The more I think about it, the more I realize that he is right. I find myself to be a mean person. Around certain people I’m mean, and around certain people I’m the nicest girl around. It would seem that I wear a mask. A lot of people I know wear masks. (Not literally, of course.) They hide who they really are and what they really feel. I’ve worn many different masks in my life, which I regret. It’s hard to let go of all the masks, because after a while, you actually fool yourself into thinking you’re really one way when, in fact, you aren’t at all.

One other thing I wanted to mention. I just wanted to say that I’m sorry to anyone I’ve ever hurt in the past by either making fun of you or being mean in any way. I take full blame for all of it. I’m really really sorry. Thanks to all of you who chose to put up with me! :)

Sincerely,

Kirstin

"Do EVERYTHING without complaining or arguing..."

Complaining. We all do it. Whether it's your parents wanting you to take out the trash or having to do homework, you're most likely gonna complain either out loud or in your head when you have to do something you necessarily don't want to do.

"Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe." Philippians 2:14-15

This verse for me is especially difficult to process in my mind, because I am such a complainer in my mind and in my actions. I can't argue worth anything, so I don't have a problem with not arguing, but the complaining part really hits home. I read this verse just the other day and immediately I thought, "Oops". Even today, I was complaining to myself about having to do stuff. I'm thinking I should plaster this verse all over my room, so I would pay attention to not complaining more often.

"In a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe." Like stars in the universe. Think about it, have you ever met somebody who was happy in dark times? Who had an unnaturally loving way about them? Who you never hear anything negative from? I have, and I can see this verse in her life, because she just has that way about her, that makes her stand out and you can see God in her. If you have met somebody like this, then you are not likely to forget them.

I think I'm probably the biggest complainer that I know...which needs to change.

Dear God, change me.

Sincerely,
Jo

Yes, I Have Deep Moments Every Once in A While

There's one decision that faces everybody when someone else does something wrong to them: To forgive or to not forgive? Now from the viewpoint of an unsaved person, it would feel fine to just harbor that unforgiveness. What that person doesn't realize is that unforgiveness can lead to so many other sins. If you hold that grudge, you are putting more weight on your shoulders to just carry around the unforgiveness.

"For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your Heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men of their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins." Matt. 6:14-15

How easy does that sound? Forgive and you will be forgiven. That's one of my favorite verses, and yet one of the most convicting. I've held grudges before, and it is not easy. You just feel terrible every time you think about what happened. When you let go of that grudge and just forgive, it's truly worth it to know that God just released that burden off of your shoulders. Your heart just feels so much lighter. Harboring unforgiveness is a sin, but when you forgive the person who wronged you, you will be forgiven by the one who truly matters: God. That's worth it.

So there's one question left: Will you forgive?

Sincerely,
Jo

*CAUTION* MAY CAUSE EXCESSIVE GAGGING

I just got done having a conversation about how gross it is to find things in your food at restaurants. Like one time, I was at a Sonic and I got a java chiller (the frozen coffee thingy) and I was about halfway through with it when I looked down into the cup and found a ball. of. hair!!! GROSSNESS! Seriously, I haven't had one since, and that was like 2 years ago. I mean, a ball of hair!!! Somebody's probably greasy hair ended up in my java chiller. I'm surprised I didn't throw up...And then once I got food poisoning from a Taco Bell. I was on my second taco when I thought it tasted weird, but it wasn't TOO weird so I finished it. Let's just say that I had to leave in the middle of a movie to go barf. It wasn't pretty...but then again, barfing never is.

I hate puking. Just the feeling you get in your stomach right before it happens, and then having to run as fast as you can to get to the bathroom, hoping along the way that nobody is in there. (I've had that happen before, I'll elaborate later.) And then the feeling of it in your throat. EW!

Anyways, the story about not making it to the bathroom in time. Well I was about 6 or 7 years old when I got REALLY sick. My Mom and Dad went somewhere, leaving my brother, Jake, to babysit me and Ryan. Well Jake invited our neighbor, Phillip, over to our house. Well I was doing something, when I had to puke, so I ran as fast as I could to the bathroom, but Phillip was in there. So I was banging on the door, one hand over my mouth, when it just came up at once, and I puked all over the floor. Jake had to clean it up, though. :) *Chuckles*

Everybody forgets that I have another brother besides Ryan. I HAVE AN OLDER BROTHER PEOPLE, HIS NAME IS JAKE AND HE LIVES IN NORTH CAROLINA. There...now you have no excuse.

I have a volleyball game tonight. We're gonna win big time. If we don't, I'll be shocked and upset, considering we just creamed them on Tuesday.

So friends are a great thing. They always cheer me up and make me jumpy, and it's AWESOME! I can be having a really bad day, and I'll just even talk to one of my friends online, and I end up laughing or smiling and it makes my day so much better. I'm so glad that I have a bunch of friends who are hilarious!

Well as fun, gross, and awesome this blogging has been, I'm done for now!

Adios, readers! :D

Sincerely,
Jo

Just An Update!

So I've been sick the past couple of days, staying at home while my brother goes out and sees friends. It's been pretty darn boring! I'm almost fully recovered now, so tonight I get to go to a movie night at our church and then to somebody's house! :D FINALLY! SOCIALIZATION! Yeah, you could say that I miss a bunch of people after only going 4 days without seeing anybody but my family. Don't get me wrong, I love seeing my family, but I miss my friends a lot.

I got a new laptop this past Friday and have been going nuts on it! I just LOVE ITTTT! It's got some great stuff on it! I've made a bunch of funny videos with this effect thingy! I'm going to try and add a new page on this blog to put some of the videos on! If I can just figure it out! lol

That's really all I got to say! Just an update!

Sincerely,
Jo

The Sore Volleyball Player

Volleyball is INTENSE.

I never thought that I would ever get really frustrated or mad during any sports game that I play in, but last night proved me wrong. Even one of my friends said that she noticed that I was getting mad. We were losing pretty badly, and when other girls on my team started getting frustrated, then I got frustrated and was SO glad when I got benched. I laugh at myself now for being happy about being benched (something I never thought I'd be happy about!) I got over the frustration when we starting winning against another team. :) I should really control my emotions more, or at least shouldn't let my bad ones show as much!

Anyways, now I'm superly sore. O_o Seriously, it hurts really really REALLY bad to even walk! I feel like an old woman with arthritis! =/ I need a caaane! *Hunches over and squints eyes* I need my glasses!

WE START CHOIR TOMORROW! Yesssss! Our song that we are going to learn is so complicated and awesome! I can't wait!

So....Senior year. Not sure if I like that.

Sincerely,
Jo

My Phobias

So after reading a blog post by one of my friends about her fears, the first thought in my mind was, "Well I don't have many fears!" After about 0.0000069 seconds of thought, I realized I do.

Coulrophobia: Fear of clowns. I absolutely HATE clowns. I just got goosebumps thinking about them! Maybe it's the insane makeup, creepy hair, and rudolph nose....or maybe it's because I've watched "IT" one too many times.

Masklophobia: Fear of mascots. Now this one, I can see why people make fun of me for it. But seriously, they creep. me. out! Ever since I was little, I've never liked them. Nothing happened to make me not like them, but they make me flip out. It happened before, I hyperventilated during a volleyball game.

Aichmophobia: Fear of needles. Even just the appearance makes me fidgety! Plus, the nurses lied to me when I was 6 and told me that they were gonna give me the shot on three. They only counted to two...

Emetophobia: Fear of vomiting. I could never be a bulimic, even if I had the stupid urge to WANT to! Barfing is just...ickyyyy and makes your throat sting and it just...isn't pleasant. =/

Gephyrophobia or Gephydrophobia or Gephysrophobia: Fear of crossing bridges. I absolutely LOATHE crossing bridges! Only big ones, little ones over teeny creeks don't bother me. But big bridges...O_O Wow. I even cover my eyes sometimes.

I know I have more, but none are coming to mind. Some of these are irrational, but I can assure you, I'm afraid of them! This was one of the most goosebump-filled and cringe-inducing blogs I've had to write.

Sincerely,
Jo

Blob About Everything!

Poems are awesome...I think somebody should write me a poem. It could be as simple as "Kirstin's so nice, Kirstin's so sweet. She doesn't like mice, She has pretty feet." See? Easy as pie! :D

So pretty much, my summer has been amazing. It has definitely been the best summer of my life! :D Yay for summerrrr!

I just watched "Freaky Friday"...I love that movie! Seriously, it cracks me up every time I watch it! Ahhh good times.

I wonder why they call this a "blog"? It reminds me too much of "blob" or "bob"...Which reminds me of my Dad! (My Dad's name is Bob, just in case you didn't get that.)

Singing is cool, Singing is fun. I hate school, I wish I was done.

I haven't started school yet. I start next week! So this is my LAST week of summer oh-ten! Sad, sad story.

Aloe plants look weird. They kind of remind me of iguanas...O_o

I hate how I don't realize how weird something sounds until AFTER I say it....Boy, oh boy, that's bringing back some awkward memories.

Me and one of my friends Amanda are always laughing at how awkward we can be. We usually don't realize how awkward we are until we take a random video of ourselves, and then watch it and say "Jeez, we're SO awkward!" Yeah...we can be. TRUST ME!

My friend once said my face is like rubber because I can make so many weird faces. =/ I don't like thinking of my face as rubber!.....(I just pinched my cheeks to see how they felt.)

I suck at phone conversations. I never know what to say no matter who I'm talking to. I can be talking to my best friend and we always have awkward pauses on the phone, but NEVER in person. Weird? Yes...so don't call me, unless it's REALLY important.

Hahahahahahahahaha....Prank calls. Hahahahahahahaha. Good times, gooood times. :D

I just got goosebumps from nothing. *Rolls eyes*

The music in "Air Bud" is so inspiring. *Wipes tear from eye*

I have nothing else to say but this......I AM A BANANA! :D

Sincerely,
Jo

Emails, bouncy balls, and coloring books...

My cat is crazed. O_O

Ryan has been watching a movie in my room for 30 minutes, and after 30 minutes of listening, I still am wondering what it is.

I was sick this morning.

Now I want to paint a bouncy ball.

I want coloring books for my birthday. :)

I think that I don't like the word "Goober". I mean, I automatically think of the word it would form if you switch the G and B around.

I have a volleyball game today.

I should probably get off and get some things done before we leave...but I won't. :)

Hippo's are HUGEMONGOUS! Shyeah...look it up.

I love the part in "Space Jam" when the little mouse gets on the court and starts talking to the monster. It's so cuuuuute! Until he squishes her. :( That's very meanie-like of him!

80's music is going through my head.

Our chickens are just. plain. ANNOYING.

I hate fowl. =/

Fowl has weird spelling.

The guy on the Yahoo Mail sign in page looks constipated. Seriously...it's funny.

I've heard from people that I don't have an accent. O_o Weird? Yes. I think I do. Northern-ish maybe? I don't sound like a hick or anything. I dunno, you tell me!

I absolutely looooovve emails! :) I do! Anybody could send me anything over email, and i'll get excited because I have an email!

I love talking in a baby voice :) Especially when people do it back. ^.^

Sincerely,
Jo

The Froggy Superhero

Okay, so I was sitting down at my friend's house eating my burger, lovin' life, and laughing at my friend Carlee's antics, when I got this sudden revelation. Why is it, that superheroes ALWAYS scream "NOOOOOOOOOOOO!" When their love dies? I mean, usually, they're sobbing the chick's name, hunched over, and can barely speak without crackling, then just SUDDENLY they get these overwhelmingly loud voices that boom "NOOOOOOO"? Um, no. I think it would be wayy-hayyyy more realistic if it was like "*Sobs* NOOOO-*crackle*-OOOO-*crackle*-OOoooo-*dies out*. Shyeah, I think about these things.

OH! There were like 20,000 frogs hopping along the road on the way home tonight. I think it's soooo disgusting. I mean, they just wait until it rains to come out and get everything all slimy and icky? Ew! Nobody likes that. I like the rain, except for the froggy/slimy part. *Cringes* That part I could do without!

Sincerely,
Jo

*Southern Accent* Talk About The Pot Callin' The Kettle Black!....Um, pots don't talk.

So as you may have noticed, the game "Snake" is now on my blog. I. love. that. game!!! Seriously, it's one of muh faverts! :) Except i suck at it...but still! It passes the time.

So what i MEANT to talk about was that one of the ads that was above it, had like something creepy that said "Meet Hot Singles Near You!"...I did NOT approve of that! Just sayin! I thought it was weird, and i didn't want you people thinkin "KIRSTIN! How could you?!" So yeah....it wasn't me. Honest.

I luurrrrve dressing up and putting weird makeup on, as of last night. Wooooo Lordy, that was a time to remember! If you are a friend of mine on facebook, then you should know what i'm talking about! If not....well here's a glimpse.





















Yeah, creepy right? Well i didn't do it...some of my friends did and i have to say they did an awesome job! I mean, after the goosebumps went away from my first time looking in the mirror, then i thought it was alright. I loved my hair the best :)

I'm really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really tired from volleyball practice today. Really.

The word Angus sounds weird to me. At first i didn't know why...but then it clicked.

I wish there was a hat with a lightbulb on top that would actually turn on when you think of something smart...Mine probably wouldn't turn on very often.

"Forget about the sunshine when it's goooonnnne!"

Sincerely,
Jo-face :)

Senior Year...

I have such mixed feelings about school starting.

I want it to start so i can see people i haven't seen ALL summer long, plus it'll give me something to do during the long, boring days! Choir! I can learn more songs that are awesome! And i'll be a Senior! Woot woot!

I don't want it to start because it's school, and i'll get sick of it very quickly. Plus, two of my friends are leaving for college when school starts. Does that suck? Yes, yes it does! I'll miss them and their n00bness! =(

Sincerely,
Jo

Zebra Stripes Are Ugly

I'm wearing nerdy glasses. ^_^

Sweet Tea is awesome!!! Not McDonald's though, theirs is yucky!

I want tomorrow to hurry up and get here!

I hate being so easily irritated.

I'm thinking the youth group should decide to go to Circus World for...LASER TAG!!! :D

People are funny.

"Whose Line is it Anyway" (FBC Youth Group version) is the funniest thing since Mitchell Davis playing Halo.

I'm pretty sure we have the best youth group in the world.

You should take advantage of any chance to see Despicable Me.

People are cool.

My mind is drawing a blank right now.

It's so funny when people don't realize they're getting set up for a major pwn.

People are stupid.

I love my friends! :D

Sincerely,
Jo

That's Deeeeep

Two colors
Black
And
White

They didn't go together
Without
A
Fight

People go by sight,
Not by what's right.

If they could only see the light
Provided by Jesus, our One delight.

Thinking of these racial problems causes me to write,
Even if you can't be nice, at least be polite.

Sleepy Thinking...

She sits at the computer,
Passing the time.
Wondering where life will take her,
When she's through with her prime.

She wishes to stay a teen,
For all the days of her life.
Or at least get to sixteen,
Without causing too much strife.

They say time is like sand,
Slipping through your fingers.
I only wish to go to Neverland,
Where time seems to linger.

Where everything is so fun,
New and Exciting.
Drama, there is none,
Maybe just a little playful fighting.

So what if it's not real?
It's in your imagination.
It's still the very ideal,
Place for a life-long vacation.

But sadly, time won't stand still.
At least, not for me.
I suppose I should go take a sleeping pill,
To let my mind wander free.

To dream of that Neverland,
The place I will always want to go,
The place I'll never fully understand,
Because I spend too much time saying no.

Random Thought...

This is mainly directed towards girls, since boys probably don't have this thought. Let's make a scenario. Let's say you're at a restaurant with a bunch of friends, and a boy is sitting next to you. Let's say you go and get a really cheesy piece of pizza, so cheesy that when you take a bite, a looong string forms that you have to, in a very unladylike manner, cut off at some point. So you are sitting next to this boy, right? Even if you don't like him, it'll make you uncomfortable and slightly embarrassed, right? Well, my point IS this! Almost every time, I wait until RIGHT AFTER he looks my way and then go in for the kill (take a bite).....and of course, every time I think i'll get away with doing this very unladylike thing, he looks. Then of course I probably blush, or just get really embarrassed.
Just. My. Luck.

Sincerely,
Jo

Smie-yul!

I think it's funny how I can picture my friends saying things. Like if I am talking to them on chat or something, I can picture them saying it and hear their voice. Me and Ryan briefly said something about it at the table talking about one of our friends, and we both agreed that we can picture him moving his hands a certain way while having a certain facial expression! Maybe we just know him that well, or he's just very predictable. Or MAYBE.......we're just awesome like that. I'm thinking the latter. :)

I think I chipped one of my teeth today. I don't know, I did something to it! It's been bugging me non-stop for around 3 hours. My teeth are whacked. =/ Fix yo-self, teethies!

Sincerely,
Jo

I Dunno...

These past few days have gone by really slowly! I feel like my life is on slow motion!

I have to go to the bathrooooom.

That's kiiind of romantic. (Not the above statement. Eat it n00b!)

I feel so funny when i say n00b. n00b n00b n00b.

I feel scatterbrained. I know that's one word because the spell checker didn't underline it, so now i feel ninja-ish for typing a long word perfectly! :D

I can't type "Sue" without spelling it wrong and typing "Sure"

The cat on my Mom's computer screen looks like a polar bear. No joke.

I once thought i saw a polar bear and i freaked OUT...but it was just a really big, white dog. No, i'm not racist.

I hate the word "racist"...along with a few choice others, but i am NOT typing them...no they are not cuss words, although i hate cuss words.

I still have to go to the bathroom.

My cat just jumped up beside the computer and i immediately switched to baby talk and i cuddled with her.....i'm sure she hated it :)

Stripes make me think of a zebra with the American flag wrapped around it's stomach.

My mind feels overactive right now....it's like running on a treadmill while wearing a frog pool floaty. :)

Do. Not. Judge.

Sincerely,
Jo

This is me...

I'm so bored, so i thought i'd just write down things that some people may or may not know about me. I'll cover most of my favorite things, my least favorite things, and just random things about me.

I love God and strive to live for Him.

Little kids and babies are the bomb-diggity. Especially babies! They're just so cute and cuddly! ^_^

I absolutely love hanging out with my friends! I usually get really jumpy and hyper when people come over, so we all act pretty crazy!

I'm a senior in high school who has no idea what i'm going to be. I guess i'll just wait and see! (Rhymed! GOOAAAL!)

Playing sports is one of my favorite things to do!

I'll be honest..........i'm crazy ticklish. But don't get any ideas =/

I apparently give very good advice. But my friends don't realize i'm telling the truth until it's too late. =P They're learning haha

I can sing, play the guitar and piano, but i'm not very good at any.

I'm about to turn 16...but people always think i'm older for some odd reason.

I love taking walks with my friends! :D

I really like listening to what other people have to say.

I love laughing! Especially when my friends make me laugh so hard my stomach hurts!

I always get headaches, either from sunlight or dehydration.

I have some of the best friends in the world!

I'm a homeschooled person, not a homeschooler. BIIIIIG difference!

I get the most random songs stuck in my head.

I really don't like it when friends get in fights.

I really really REALLY don't like drama, especially when there's crying involved.

I hate perverted jokes.

I hate when my friends (*cough* and brother) say my least-favorite words.

I loooove cold weather! :D

The glass is definitely half-full.

Sincerely,
Jo

Centrifuge is the best.

Centrifuge. was. BEYOND AMAZING!

The theme was "Kairos", which means "Defining Moment".

It was definitely more than i expected it to be! It was so much more better than any other church camp i had ever been to! They put God into EVERYTHING! i loved it!

At other church camps, they'd just have a bible study or something in the morning and worship at night, and then in the middle you'd basically just play sports or something and not hear anything about God. At Centrifuge, if we played a sport, they'd have a short devotion afterwords about how playing sports is an example of something. Example: Just played Ultimate Frisbee, then you'd have a devotion about how you can't play on an Ultimate team by yourself. You have to depend on your teammates to play also, and have to have two-way communication in order to play well. Same way with you and God.

Even though it was a great church camp, us girls still had some drama, but we're not going into that. It's over, we're friends.

Anyways, the worship was AWESOME, too! I absolutely loved every single song that they played. One that's been in my head since i left says "Our God is Greater, Our God is Stronger, Our God is higher than any other. Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God, Our God." LOVE IT! On Friday night when i heard that, it clicked majorly! I was just in awe of how true it was, and how big God is! Amazing!

Plus, i got to meet a bunch of cool people while i was there! :D Can i get a "Woot Woot"? :D

If you EVER get the chance to go to a Centrifuge camp, i'd be the first to tell you to go! No matter how close or how far you are from God, that camp will bring you closer to Him!

So pretty much, last week was NO DOUBT the best week of my life! It was definitely one of my Defining Moments.

Sincerely,
Jo

Things I'm Waiting For...

#1 - Church car wash in 2 days!

#2 - Church camp in 11 days! :D

#3 - My Amazing 16th Birthday! (At least i HOPE it's gonna be amazing!)

#4 - September 14th...the day i go take my driver's test for my LICENSE!

#5 - Volleyball to start up!

#6 - Guys around here to act right! Haha

#7 - Next time i see my friends from UCA!

#8 - Rain.

My mind drew a blank after 8! haha! That's about it i guess!


Sincerely,
Jo

I'm So Wimpy!

Headaches are the worst. I would rather be throwing up sick than have a headache like i do now!...Yeah, that's how much i hate them! They just throb and bug you and you can't put in headphones and listen to music cuz it'll make it hurt even WORSE! I rarely get headaches, but when i do...it HUUURRTS!!! But i HATE taking pills, so i'm just gonna sit here and suffer until the pain goes away. That's pretty much how i deal with every injury i get. i just wait out the pain...with an occasional complaint here and there. It's so funny though, because when i complain to my friends about it hurting, they're all like "Well go take some aspirin!" and i just say "NO! i HATE pills!"...then they think i'm all tough and stuff...but i'm not. I'm a little wimp. Wimpy Kirstin...that's me!

I wonder if i talk too much. Tonight i wasn't being talkative because of my throbbing headache and people kept asking why i wasn't talking. So that pretty much told me that i talk alot. I kinda liked being quiet tonight...i felt like an observer, just listening to everybody else talk and play around, and there i am just sitting there all quiet. lol i think i'm gonna be a little more quiet from now on...but not so quiet that i appear emo...which i'm not, i can assure you. So yeah, peace out.

Sincerely,
Jo

Musica

I've been listening to my iPod ALOT lately. I never used to use it at all hardly! Maybe the teenage years are finally kicking in. Music is so awesome, to listen to AND to play! I've just recently started playing the guitar and piano again! I wanna learn the violin, too! My parents say that they have no idea where me and my brothers got our music skills from, because neither of them play anything! haha! I guess it's just because we tried and wanted to learn to play instruments! It was either Jake or me who got the first instrument when we were kids. I remember getting a tiny keyboard, but i can't remember if Jake had anything before that! But yeah, those years were the start of the music in our household! Since then, Jake learned how to play the drums, the guitar, the bass, and the piano. Ryan learned how to play the guitar, the bass, the piano, the violin, and the drums. I learned how to play the piano and the guitar. I'm definitely the less musically apt one. Oh well.

Sincerely,
Jo

Owchie Wa Wa...or Ow Chihuahua. Either one.

I think my creativity has gone out the window lately. Except when it comes to drawing, because now i can draw things spontaneously and they turn out looking good! But still, i feel so old and boring (i only added "old" for effect).

Don't you hate how when you wake up from a nap, you're more tired than you were BEFORE the nap?...Is it just me that feels that way? I'm not sure, but oh well.

We had a soccer game today. It was by far the most painful soccer game i've ever played in my life! I never gotten really hurt...i mean lay-on-the-ground-because-it-freakin-hurts-too-much-to-get-up hurt! But today, that happened, and now i've got a huge bruise forming on my shin. By the way, i was wearing shin guards...and i got hurt UNDER the shin guards. Make any sense? I didn't think so. PLUS i had to be benched (that was of my own choice, because of my stupid leg)...i was gonna try really hard not to get benched once throughout the whole season, but today, i had to!

I feel like David in "David After Dentist", because i really feel like i could ask "Is this real life?" (I just woke up from a nap)

......Is this real life?

I loathe bugs.

Sincerely,
Jo

GLU :D

Field day was the most fun i had in a long time!

I'm extremely sore from holding 3 people on my back yesterday.

I'm thinking i need to sleep some more.

GLU! (try and figure that one out!)

I have a huge bump/bruise on my leg from SOMETHING (idk what) that happened yesterday!

Julian Smith is hilarious.

Skinny jeans are disgusting on guys.

I wanna see Alice in Wonderland really bad.

Cramping Legs + Twister = Fail.

I need to stop biting my nails.

The world is round.

I wish i could think of the craziest thing i've ever done.

We have 17 chickens.

I should be more outgoing.

Soccer practice is in an hour and a half.

Sincerely,
Jo

I'm A Little More Than Useless

This weather makes me feel morbid. I was saying some pretty morbid things last night, according to one of my best friends. But now i actually FEEL morbid. I just look outside, it looks morbid, so i feel morbid. Yeah....morbid.

What does morbid even mean? I mean, i just know it's something like, death-like. Hold on, i'm looking for the definition...Morbid: Suggesting an unhealthy mental state. ............LOL! yeah...thaaaat's me!

Anyways, yeah. i don't like this weather. At. all. Mainly because my soccer game got cancelled because of it, but still, it's so....dark...melancholy...MORBID! Yes, the weather has an unhealthy mental state. It's very troubled.

Ummmmm....i like the word mental. It sounds like an interesting word.

"Sure" should be spelled "Shur"...it makes more sense.

I want to see a beached whale before i die.

Sincerely,
Jo

Self-image

Self-image is a big thing in today's society.

I never really thought much about it until last night at church when Mrs. Dooley was talking about it. Almost all teenage girls, or some guys (not sure, since i'm not a guy and all), at one point or another, have a bad self-image. Ever since i was about 12 or so i started getting a bad self-image. It all started in sixth grade because we went to a private christian school and i wanted to "fit in". That's when my self-image started going down the drain because i kept comparing my looks to other girls' looks. I still do that, but i never really noticed how much i did that until last night.

Mrs. Dooley said something that i've heard a thousand times, but it never clicked until last night. God sees us all as beautiful because HE made us. And it doesn't really matter how other people see us because God is the only really important one! I mean how pointless is it to spend your entire life trying to look like other people or trying to make yourself look better when God made you just the way he wanted you? I'm trying not to pick out every little thing i hate about myself anymore, because if God wanted it that way, then that's fine with me.

Sincerely,
Jo

So Annoying...

Pet Peeves. I wonder why they put "pet" in the name. I can understand "peeves", but not "pet"...because not only pets give you pet peeves! I have so many pet peeves, it's ridiculous! But i'm not telling you what the big ones are, because yeah...you might start doing them to annoy me. i WILL tell you a few of my least annoying ones, though.

#1 - people whining on their facebook or yahoo, etc, status that they're depressed or sad. i mean, if you're really having a crappy day, why go tell all your not-close friends? If i'm depressed or sad, i usually don't say so on their because people ask questions, then i have to explain it all, which will in turn probably bum me out even more! But whatever... that's just me.

#2 - people saying "nothing" when you ask if they're alright and you know something's wrong. it just irks me a little. if im not okay and somebody asks "are you okay?" i just say no! and then if they ask more questions, i just say "i don't wanna talk about it!"...simple as that.

#3 - people making a big deal out of accidents. i mean, come on people! ACCIDENT! gahh!

i can't really think of any other non-big pet peeves. but yeah, those are the few that were on my mind. Pet peeves are just plain annoying. End of discussion.

Sincerely,
Jo

Vacation!

Tonight, not long after my father arrives home from work, me and my family will be leaving for North Carolina. We're going there to visit my brother, Jake, his girlfriend, and her family. It's gonna be pretty exciting! On Thursday, we're going to the beach! :D which will be fun...well that is if i remember sunscreen. If not, i might just die. But yeah, it's gonna be a good trip. On Friday, we're gonna leave to go to Virginia to visit a few of our cousins (we've got like 100 cousins...no joke.). I'm not sure exactly what we're gonna do, but we'll find something! haha! Then on Sunday morning, we're heading back. We probably won't get back until night. So yeah, that's gonna be my week! I should probably get to packing >.> darn it...

Sincerely,
Jo

Pain.

When i'm in serious pain, i don't smile. I don't know if people think this is weird or anything but for me it's a fact of life.

When i'm not mad and someone says with an edgy voice, "Why are YOU mad?!" THEN i get mad. I just wanna say, "i wasn't until you ASKED that!"

When i'm in serious pain and not mad, and someone asks that, i get even madder than i normally would have.

When i'm in serious pain, i don't want to talk about anything face to face.

Not Sincerely,
Jo

Field Day

At the end of this month, we have field day.

Field Day is a big day where all of us homeschoolers meet at Hartsville and have teams and play games, do obstacles, all that cool jazz. The past two years, the team i was on won. I hope we win this year, too. Still don't know who i have on my team yet...i hope i get some good people! lol! I absolutely LOVE field day!!! I just love playing sports with friends, period.

2 years ago i was on the light blue team and the good people i had on my team were Tonya and K-Bob. Last year i was on the red team and i had Ben, Timmy, and Jessica. So yeah, it pretty much all depends on whos on my team. haha! the last day for signing up is in 3 days, so it should be soon after that when we get the lists. But it SUCKS cuz my mom wont be able to check her email since we're going on vacation. -_- figures.

Anyways...yeah. I'm excited. REALLY excited. like....seriously. i am.

BYE!!!

Sincerely,
Jo

Hate hate HATE it!

Don't you just hate it when two of your good friends are fighting or mad at eachother?

I hate it.

Because i have to be the one sitting in the middle feeling totally awkward. I love both of those friends and obviously would want things to go back to how they were before! Plus when they keep being mad at eachother then i get irked and eventually just come out and tell them that they are being stupid, which then makes them mad at me, and then we're not speaking.

By the way, this isn't happening, it just came to mind and i wanted to write about it. lol

Sincerely,
Jo

Mean Girls

Okay, first i would like to say to Amanda that i am not copying you! I was actually going to write about this before i saw your blog! lol! So yeah...

Okay, so on Sunday nights the girls and guys split up the bible studies and us girls are reading out of a book called "Mean" (or Mean Girls....i dont remember lol). Anyways, it's about, yep you guessed it, mean girls!!! It's about how to deal with them or how to overcome it if you are one.

Now at the very beginning when we first started it, i thought i wasn't a mean girl. BUT, as the lessons go on, i'm slowly realizing how mean i really am. Ever since we started, i've been trying to stop my prejudices, my bad thoughts about other girls (and some guys), and basically my whole thinking process about other people. It's REALLY hard, but i've been asking God to help me try to become a nicer person, because now i really know how mean i am.

One thing i've REALLY had a hard time with is grudges. I'm the type of person who if you do one thing to me, i never forget it. I might seem like i'm over it and might even trick myself into thinking i'm over it, but the truth is once you do another thing to me, that thing comes right back to my mind and i just hold on to unforgiveness. I'm asking God to help me really forgive people.

And sorry to all of you who i've been mean to, whether in my head or in my actions.

Sincerely,
Jo

AH!!

I'm a 15 year old junior in high school, okay. That means i'm gonna be a SENIOR in a couple of months. I don't know what i'm gonna do after school, and it all just really sucks! I wish i was a sophmore, at least! Yeah, i just...hate decisions. I REALLY REALLY thought about going into nursing, which it's not completely out of my mind yet, but i'm just not sure that it's something i want to do. idk! I want to at least get a degree in SOMETHING, so during the years i won't be married and will have nothing to do, i'll be able to get a good job. Whatever...i just, hate all of those decisions.

Blahhhh

I haven't posted anything in like, forever...thats because nothing has happened in like, forever.

Oh wait...duhhhh! today was the soccer pre-tournament.

Long story short, we lost 2, tied one, and i sucked.

DONE! :D

Sincerely,
Jo

CONVENTION!!!

Convention...was...AWESOME!!!

I wish i could go back and do it all over again, just to re-experience the feelings!

Before we all left for Bowling Green, everybody met at the bank in Westmoreland to have a little meeting thingy where we all listened to Mr. Counts. After the long meeting, we got our room assignments. I was roomed with Kaitlin and Abby (Abby was sick, so it was only me and Kate the whole week). We then had to get all our luggage and get in a car to leave. I got in a car with Becca, Ashley, and Bethany. We mainly just talked, sang, and goofed off the whole way there!

So, when we actually got to the convention everything was so new! I felt slightly out of place though, knowing that almost everybody with me knew just where they were and what to do. When people said some stuff like "Let's go to the DUC building!" i was left with a question mark over my head. Luckily, i now know where most everything is. We sat in the lobby messing around and being bored for probably an hour and a half before we had to go get our clothes checked and get our nametags (which are really awesome by the way!). Then we had lunch. Oh. Em. Gee. Lunch was like the best thing ever! They had so many things to choose from i was just in shock! I finally decided and then went to sit with some friends to eat. After lunch, we left for the hotel to unpack and do whatever we wanted for an hour. We left from there to go back to the DUC building to sing our Small and Large Ensemble songs. After that, Rally. Rally was really cool! They had these two HUGE nets filled with balloons over us and a bunch of confetti! We sang, popped balloons, collected confetti, and then listened to the sermon! The preacher for that week was so cool! After rally, we chilled at the DUC building for about 20 minutes before going to get something to eat. We all ate and headed back to the hotel. It was about 9:45 when we got back and we were so tired, we went to bed at 10:30.

The previous night, i told Mrs. Jones and Kaitlin (Mrs. Jones being our chaperone) to wake me up at 5:30 (they got up at 5). Well once they got up, they made too much noise which woke me up. I got up and got ready by 6:45 i'm guessing. We went to other rooms and chilled with people before heading down for devotion. Mrs. Collins did the devotion, which was a good one, and we left for the campus at 8.
When we got there, i had nothing to do that day. It was just a day for instrumental stuff, certain sports, and track. So i just chilled and watched different stuff! It was a pretty boring day, so i can't really remember anything that went on. Basically, i just watched stuff before going back to the hotel for
an hour to chill before going to eat dinner. After eating, we left to go the Rally again, which was yet another awesome Rally. After Rally, we went to Baskin Robbins, not telling anybody (even the boys) that it was the "A dollar a scoop" night there! When we got back to the hotel, it was about 10:45 or 11 i think.

The next day, i got up at 5 again to get ready. I think i was always the first girl ready to leave in the whole hotel. I'd be ready and then go to someone else's room, to find them just waking up. -_- laaame. But that was fine with me. That day was definitely the most hectic! It was the singing day, which always has EVERYBODY busy! That morning, i was SCHEDULED to sing at 8 (the very first singing event of the day), but Joanna didnt get there until 8:30, and the girls had to go play volleyball at 8:45, so there wasn't enough time to do it before the game. After the game we went back to the DUC building to sing our female quartet. We did well, but not our best. After that, we basically just chilled until lunchtime. Lunch, again, was awesome. After lunch, the hectic-ness started again as me, Ellen and Ben were going crazy trying to find Joanna and a place to practice. We got in maybe 2 minutes of practicing before having to go and do it. I think we did fairly well in that one. Apparently we messed up in one tiny part, but i didn't hear it. After that, a bunch of people went to watch track, but i just stayed in the DUC building and chilled with Naomi, Timmy, Andrew, Carey, Stephanie, Jessie C., Mr. Counts, and Jonathan A.. During that chilling out time, me and Mr. Counts decided we were gonna have a bowling match against eachother on Thursday (i was just kidding at first, but he thought i was serious -_- ). We were there for what seemed like forever, just doing nothing! It was so nice! haha! After that, we went to Subway and ate before going to the hotel and then Rally. After Rally, we just went back to the hotel to have FUN!! I went into Becca, Amanda, Naomi, and Annie's room, and we had a BLAST! We did skittle catching contests (which i won), and played cards, and were pretty much laughing the entire time!! Oh yeah, and we got called by the security cuz one of the neighbors gave a noise complaint...oops! lol!

Got up at 5...again. I went early when i could've slept until like 9. Dumb, i know. It was me, Kaitlin, Candace, Courtney, Ashley, Allison, and Rebecca who went early. Allison had archery and it started raining so we all (except Ashley and Allison) stayed in the van and slept. After archery, we went to the DUC building and me and Kaitlin had to sit and wait for the Bible Bowl team to get done with their round before leaving for the gym. It was the day where i only had 3-on-3 volleyball, or so i thought. I was doing volleyball with K-Bob and David A., but K-Bob was sick and didn't feel up to it, so Joe Counts stepped in his place. I was going crazy trying to find somebody's culottes to borrow, before finally borrowing Kaitlin's. When we were about to play volleyball, we found out that another team was playing, so we had to wait longer. During that waiting time, Emily and Allison needed another girl to replace Onnollee's spot in 3-on-3 basketball (because Onnolee had drama). So i filled her spot and played a game with them. We were playing these three girls who looked about 12. The one who i picked to stay on just happened to be the hardest one, but i didn't care much. It was 6-6 before the ref asked us if we wanted to play to 16 points or make it shorter. Our team decided to play to 16 because the other team looked so tired that we thought we could beat them! It was 9-8 i think when all of a sudden, one of the girls almost had an asthma attack, therefore, forfeiting the game. We won and i ran back over to do volleyball. In our volleyball game, we won the first one, because frankly, the other team sucked. The second one we almost won, but we lost. So we were eliminated and that was it for my day's events. The day just went on like any normal day after that and then we went back to the hotel to have some fun. Then we left for Rally. Rally was good, again, except for the game part. They had the banana game. It's so horrible, because if someone just walked in on the middle of the game without hearing how it goes, they would think that the convention would support homosexuality. EW!! yuck yuck yuck! anyways...yeah after rally we went to Culvers with our school and had a good time! Apparently i was really funny that night cuz everybody at my table was cracking up! I still don't think i was that funny. Anyways after eating, we sang some songs as a treat to the workers for staying late to serve us. We went back to the hotel, but the night was still young (11:15, anyways.) Most of us went downstairs and played cards until 12:30, before going to bed.

The last day. Awards ceremony.

Got up at 5 again, got ready, packed my stuff, and left for the awards ceremony. Before the ceremony, Hannah and Chelsea got there and we talked for a bit (well, they mainly talked about how girly i was becoming T_T ). My mom came, too. The awards ceremony was starting and they started with a command performance for a play. The play was...alright i guess. But then the awards started. I think the first awards were for academics, which i didnt enter anything in, so i just hunkered down and sat there. The next command performance was a poem, i think? It was really good, and then i think next came sports. I still didnt have anything. Command performance by Sam Pinzur for the "Give me liberty or give me death" speech! He did really well in it! Then came the Art. I entered one drawing but i didnt think i would make the top 6. Then my name came up on the screen and i was so excited! I had to get up and go around to the sketching section to wait to go on stage. I still didn't know what place i got until they called out my name. So i walked up with all the other sketchers in the top 6 and i was SO sure that i was sixth, so they said "Sixth place....(forever long pause)" and then called someones name that wasnt mine. (My thoughts are italicized) Okay, i got fifth then! "Fifth place...." NOT ME! Okaaaaaay...fourth! I got ready to walk up on stage cuz i was ENTIRELY sure that i was fourth. "Fourth place...." STILL NOT ME! At this point, i looked over to the guy standing next to me and said "This is weird..." and then they said "Third place...Kirstin Tucker!!" I got all happy and i heard the section where our school was sitting screaming and yelling and stuff and i had the hugest smile on my face as i walked up to get my medal. When i walked off and went back to my seat, i was still so happy! I forgot who i was sitting next to, but i remember i said to them "I wanna do it again!!" lol! Anyways, after that, i didnt have any awards until the singing awards started. In that i got third place in both of my Quartets (Female Quartet with Naomi, Ashley and Ali. And the Mixed Quartet with Ellen, Ben and JP). And then our school won the large and small ensemble awards. And then we went on to win the overall Music award for our school and the athletic award i think? But yeah, our school won alot of stuff!

After the awards ceremony we stuck around the campus for a little while and took pictures with people! After that we all went to Ryan's and filled our hungry bellies! lol! But yeah, that about sums up the whole Convention week!

OH WAIT!!! Funny, yet awkward for me, story!!!...Okay, so on Tuesday as i was watching the basketball games, i was walking by the court and this dude started talking to me. I was a tad freaked out and i asked, "What?" cuz i didnt hear him. Then he said, "Hey, you're Casey! Don't you remember me from last year?!" All i said was, "Uh...no." And i turned around and walked (more like power-walked) off!....Well i thought that was the end of him until Wednesday! It was the busy day and i had to go get Ben to ask him if he knew where Joanna was. Ben and Holland were talking to that same dude! So i just sucked it up and went to ask him, thinking the dude wouldn't say anything. Boy, was i ever wrong! I walked up keeping my focus on Ben so the dude knew i was ignoring him, when he was like, "You DON'T remember me from last year?" Then i just looked at him and was like, "I didn't COME last year!" He looked confused and was like "Are you sure?" Me and Ben were like, "Yeah!" Then he asked, "But your name is Casey, right?" I laughed and was like, "No!". Then he just said, "Sorry, you look alot like her!" Then me and Ben walked away, with me saying, "That was WEIRD!!"

So after a week of squealing girls, annoying boys, cute boys ;) , and getting in trouble...i'd say i had a pretty good time! Can't wait for next year, already! :D

Sincerely,
Jo

Oh, Convention. Why did you come to me in springtime?

*huge gasp* CONVENTION IS ALMOST HERE!!!!

Wow...i can't believe it's only 2 more days until i'm on my way to convention! ^.^ I wonder who i'm roomed with? How busy will i be? Am i gonna suck in my events? Am i gonna be a nervous wreck? DID TIMMY FALL DOWN THE WELL?!...Okay, sorry. i got a little carried away there.

This past week has been SOOO tiring! I've gone somewhere every single day this past week!...At convention i'm gonna have to wake up at like 6 AM and probably won't go to bed until midnight every...single...DAY! So yeah, i'm going to basically be sleepwalking through the later part of the week!

O_O i need to start packing. Why did i just NOW remember to do this? Because i'm dumb, that's why.

Sincerely,
Jo